Fifi's diary

Feeling: 'Just there' Time: 4:06 pm (EAT)  "You don't seem to have worries" , "you're always happy" blah blah blah... I've heard these and a few others quite similar so many times. To be honest, it makes me feel good. Yunno, having people see you as a shining light in a somewhat sad world. Weird thing is that not everyone says it with a "truly- inquisitive- how- can- this- be- so?" manner. Some say it with a derisive ring to it. I actually do not care! As long as I'm truly happy! I remember telling my best friend sometime last year, "hey, it's been a while I got mad over anything" and he said " that's good, you're discovering inner peace! " I felt on top of the world. I WAS DISCOVERING INNER PEACE. I still am. Since the beginning of last year, my one major goal was to learn to be happy and spread positivity. Why?  Because LIFE IS SO DARN SHORT. This doesn't mean I don't get sad, i...

Feeling : Nervous and excited.  Time: 6:31pm (EAT ) Inhales. Exhales. It's been such a while. A long while at that. I miss doing this. Not much has changed. Well, physically. I mean, I have ten fingers, still 5ft plus a few inches, still have my natural hair intact... Yeah, not much has changed. Although, somehow, I feel like as much as things are the same physically, not much is the same inwardly, of course I'm still the same human being, but some growth has happened. I'm sure of that and it makes me super glad. I've taken breaks off writing on different occasions, so much that I think I have gotten tired of all these "hey! Welcome back" posts.  But I'm really glad to be back, feels like home, and I hope you stay a while. I'll let you in on some of the major  happenings in my life right now. 1.  Done with National Service.  Yay. 2. I spent three months learning how to make clothes ( TBH it feels weird saying 'tailor' or 'f...