Fifi's diary

Feeling: Hungry and Lazy.  Time: 11:50 am Cloud painting and abstract art by Corannie Melanie I always say that 200 level in uni was very challenging for me. I craved love (not necessarily romantic inclined) and friendship. Genuine friendship. I didn't have those, I felt so alone, and it led me to a downward spiral. I had my worst grades that year. I had my first and last carryover.  In a bid to find love and friendship. I forged friendships with people I wouldn't ordinarily have been friends with. Mostly boys. I am a love being, you see, so all the love I wanted to receive, I gave. I gave too much of myself (only because they weren't necessarily deserving of my love and attention).  One of the friends I made was super weird in every sense of the word. I don't want to give too much away, but he was weird. I thought I could help him out of his weirdness, I befriended him. He felt very unloved, I showed him love (it was a very platonic relationship we ...

Time: Yesterday and today. Feeling: Sleepy. Been quite a while, I know. Sigh* My emotions were all over the place. Trust you're all great!  How'd Valentine's Day go?!  I like hearing that kind of gist.  What did you do?  Me?  I slept, I think . I don't even remember what I did. It was such a blur. Pinterest  I'm not about to write this because it's the 'month of love'. A coincidence, actually.  Someone on twitter said, " 'I love you' is mad basic" and I have a few things to say about it. I used to think saying 'I love you' all the time was boring. I used to think constantly saying 'I love you' didn't convey the depth of my love enough. Yunno, it seemed Blehhhh!  I used to find creative ways to convey my love. I still do - I mean, find creative ways to say 'I love you'. I have come to understand one thing, though. Nothing trumps 'I love you'. The problem is that love is a word that has b...

Feeling: I'm actually not feeling anything. I just want to pee. Time: 9:25 am Okay, first of all I have a confession. Remember I said  here , that I wasn't going to watch the remaining episodes of SGIT until today. Life happened. I watched it o. I watched everything the next day, I was so bored. Now that I've gotten the confession out of the way, I can welcome you to a new month. I'm thankful for how far God has brought each and every one of us. We all know this month is the month of love. There's a whole history of a certain Mr Valentino or something like that. I was told the story when I was in junior secondary school. I have never been stoked about it. It has always been a normal day for me. I don't think I ever received a gift while I was growing up. I have always been of the opinion that Valentine's Day shouldn't be the only day you get to receive love or give love to your partner, I mean, you have 365 days to do that. If anything, it ...