Fifi's diary

Feeling: Not quite happy Time: 12:55pm I really don't feel like writing. I'll probably grab a book or sleep after this. There's this weird obligation to show up, but as I often tell myself, this is a 'diary'. Not necessarily private; I choose what I want to share. I am as real as possible. Today, I don't feel like showing up, and I don't feel  the need to pretend, and I think it's okay. I hope you have a beautiful week, I'll be back on Friday, by God's grace. Much love,  Fifi. 

Feeling: At peace Time: 7:17am Okurrr (in case you never knew, yeah, I like cardi B, she's a whole mood). Okay, the truth is, it's not the FEVER video that got me thinking about this whole age issue in relationships. I've been thinking about it since we had rumors of Priyanka Chopra and Nick Jonas being in a relationship. I was stunned! By the time they got engaged, and saw the pictures, I thought it was cute (she doesn't even look older. Such beauty!) Then the FEVER video was released. It 'confirmed' what so many people had been thinking. To be honest, it's none of my business, but it really got me thinking. The video was received with a lot of umm... I wouldn't use the word hate, I'll use disgust.  So many people were disgusted by the idea of Tiwa, an older woman dating Wizkid.  Trust Nigerians to have really strong opinions. I asked myself if I could date a younger man; to be honest, it never ever crossed my mind. Really.  I'd alw...

Feeling: Super sleepy Time: 7:13am As you know, by now I talk about almost anything on here. I want to talk about makeup. Yeah, the face thingy. I know it very random and not super serious, but this is a diary, so, why not? Tehehe. I like makeup a lot, but I can't do any by myself to save my life. Can you believe that I can't draw my brows? I mean, I believe it's pretty simple, I've watched tons of YouTube videos, you'd expect me to be a guru by now. Sigh* I used to think I'd come around and eventually learn how to beat my face, but I highly doubt that is happening. I may learn how to draw the brows though. I mean,  that should be as easy as ABC, but for now lip gloss is my go to. I don't even use powder. I just make my hair into a large puff, wear some lip gloss and I'm ready.  Thank God I have naturally trimmed brows, I don't have to brush them or anything. Makes life super easy for me. I was talking about this same topic with my sister...

Feeling: Sleepy Time: 3:17pm I'm almost always on my phone. No one complains much though, I mean, why should anyone complain? Anyway, I'd like to let you guys in on some of the apps that keep me glued to my phone. They are in no particular order. WPS OFFICE I really really like this app, because my laptop annoys me. It's super handy. It does everything Microsoft office can do. I like the theme, weirdly. BIBLE My favorite Bible app. I prefer it to My sword, this is a lot more interactive. I used to be crazy about the follow feature. I don't really like it anymore. I love love love that it has devotionals too, not just that, you can choose the devotional  that suits how you feel. You can change the theme as much as you like! TWITTER   Never thought this would happen, but here it is. Happening.  PINTEREST   I love Pinterest. It's like google, but just for pictures. I have many boards on Pinterest. I know what I want my h...

Feeling: Hungry Time: 1:13p.m I don't know how to start this, it's about kindness, but somehow I don't know how to articulate my words, and it's weird. I could understand if I was about to talk, but I want to write, and I don't know how to explain myself. It could be because it's something so simple, yet so complicated. I don't know. It's sad that many of us have lost a grip on kindness. It's sad. We go on social media and type out whatever comes into our minds.  We like this freedom of speech thingy we have going on, so that we speak whatever we think without using filters. Speak, because, I'm really interested in talking about kind words and how far away they are from our lips. Even the instagram app has the filter feature to make a picture more appealing, to make the picture flawless. Since I can't really articulate my words properly, I may just write some points on how we can embrace kind words and end there. Maybe it's...

Feeling: sigh* Time: 5:49pm It's amazing. Really amazing, how humans switch. Just like that. One minute you're sad, the next you're happy, or feeling some façade of happiness. Momentuous happiness. Short-lived, because in a little while, after that moment of euphoria, we're brought back to reality. Our reality hits us.  It's saddening. Yesterday night, I was listening to music. I was really happy, I was making videos, and while at it, I felt like a pretender, for about five seconds. I've been trying to analyze that feeling since.  Social media is amazing. People'll rather share the amazing things going on, they'll choose to not share the not so glamorous parts. Everyone is expected to keep up the charade of  "I'm such a happy person living my best life". Now, when someone decides to share the not so beautiful sides, it's either people do not react, they get hated on, or just 0.5% react positively. Now that I think about it...

Feeling: Confused (should I go back to bed or not?) Time:7:05pm I've been wanting to talk about this for a week. Not necessarily because of our Independence Day, the state of Nigeria is always on my mind. I very much understand that Nigeria is not where it should be. It feels like we should be at the university level,  but somehow, just somehow we're still in primary six.  Sigh* It's sad. Disheartening, actually. I understand. We pour out our frustrations a lot, and that's okay, I mean, if no one is complaining, then something is wrong, but we know that sometimes, complaints don't do much, they actually worsen the situation. Especially complaints that aren't backed with the right actions. I don't fancy it much when everyone sits back and complains on twitter. You're complaining on twitter but aren't doing much in reality to help our nation, or let's even say your community, if that's too large, let's say your neighbor. Not a li...