Fifi's diary

Feeling: 'Just there' Time: 4:06 pm (EAT)  "You don't seem to have worries" , "you're always happy" blah blah blah... I've heard these and a few others quite similar so many times. To be honest, it makes me feel good. Yunno, having people see you as a shining light in a somewhat sad world. Weird thing is that not everyone says it with a "truly- inquisitive- how- can- this- be- so?" manner. Some say it with a derisive ring to it. I actually do not care! As long as I'm truly happy! I remember telling my best friend sometime last year, "hey, it's been a while I got mad over anything" and he said " that's good, you're discovering inner peace! " I felt on top of the world. I WAS DISCOVERING INNER PEACE. I still am. Since the beginning of last year, my one major goal was to learn to be happy and spread positivity. Why?  Because LIFE IS SO DARN SHORT. This doesn't mean I don't get sad, i...

Feeling : Nervous and excited.  Time: 6:31pm (EAT ) Inhales. Exhales. It's been such a while. A long while at that. I miss doing this. Not much has changed. Well, physically. I mean, I have ten fingers, still 5ft plus a few inches, still have my natural hair intact... Yeah, not much has changed. Although, somehow, I feel like as much as things are the same physically, not much is the same inwardly, of course I'm still the same human being, but some growth has happened. I'm sure of that and it makes me super glad. I've taken breaks off writing on different occasions, so much that I think I have gotten tired of all these "hey! Welcome back" posts.  But I'm really glad to be back, feels like home, and I hope you stay a while. I'll let you in on some of the major  happenings in my life right now. 1.  Done with National Service.  Yay. 2. I spent three months learning how to make clothes ( TBH it feels weird saying 'tailor' or 'f...

Feeling : unmotivated Time: 8:04 a.m Hmmn today's gist is about Travelling majorly on Nigerian roads. I think what got me thinking about this is the fact that I'm going home tomorrow for a few days and I'm thinking about how the whole journey will go. Truth Is I hate Nigerian roads. Everybody does actually. As much as I'm the indoorsy type of person, I think a little part of me likes travelling, but for some reason, I'm scared of it. I'm not a pessimist, but I'm really scared of travelling cos I'm scared of accidents. I know, I know, I'm going too far,  but that's what you get when you have a crazy imaginative mind - you imagine the worst and you imagine the best.  Trust me, I'm even better,  God has helped me deal with my irrational fears to a large extent. There was a time me , my dad and brother were walking under a bridge and I was telling my dad to hurry, cos I didn't want the bridge to fall on us. I don't know what I...

Feeling: Like a detective. Time: can't remember when I started. It will be wrong for me to go on without saying why I haven't been on here. As much as I'd love to say something fancy like, "oh I'm sorry, I was on a much needed vacation in Hawaii constantly swimming, ordering room service, and having the time of my life. " I can't say that cos it'd be a lie as I was quite sick last week and lazy too (I mean when I recovered), and somehow, there was no ginger AKA nothing to motivate me. Oh and I'm feeling like a detective cos I've been watching "The mentalist. " Anyhoos, today, I'll be talking about a concept I only got to really know about quite recently. Double dating. To be honest, I only saw this in movies, mostly Nigerian I guess. I think I remember one time when I was younger I checked the Internet for the meaning, and I saw something close to "it's when two couples go out on a date" I dunno if it's...

Feeling : Sad for no reason Time: 6:50p.m Hi guys, well, I'm not writing this post cos I'm bored or because my CDS (Community Development Service) is something related to environmental blah blah. I'm saying this because the situation we've found ourselves in is quite horrible. Is it because we are Nigerians, or Africans, I don't get why we have to litter everywhere we go. I mean, even educated people do this, TBH it makes no sense to me. When I was growing up, it's one thing I deliberately picked from my dad. One of the billion things I learnt from him. I don't think my siblings even throw things into bins all the time. I remembered one time my mom and I went out, I bought maize or something and when I was done,i held the cob, she told me I should throw it away, but there was no bin know sight. My mom being a clown, waited for me to hold it loosely and then shook it out of my hand😂😂. My mom though. Anyways, I asked a bunch of people why they th...

Feeling: Lazy. Wanna be in bed all day Time : 6:44a.m Lol this post was scheduled for a day in May, but NYSC decided to scatter it. So, I'm just writing it. If you're Nigerian say "yo!" More specifically, if you're Yoruba say "ayyeee." This post is going to be about our culture and one very important aspect of it - Greetings and Respect . I hear that the Yoruba culture is probably the most respectful culture not only in Nigeria, but in the whole world. I wouldn't disagree with that if it's true. The proper way for a girl to greet elders is for her to go down on her knees and for the guys, they prostrate. Imagine during the trad wedding, going to greet the girl's parents and not fully prostrating!!!!  Just know you have forfeited the girl. Growing up, my parents weren't crazy crazy fans of going down fully on your knees to greet them in the morning, though I remember one time, when I was probably 12 or 13, my daddy said we s...

Feeling:  Energetic and hungry Time: 9:21a.m. Today’s post is giving me goosebumps, because I’m so excited!!! It’s a featured post!!!   In this age, CO LIVING  doesn’t seem to be a new thing, it’s like everybody is into  it. It’s like a norm. I really didn’t want this post to seem subjective, so I asked not one, but many people this question, ' what do you think of co living. Like a guy and a girl are dating, but they live together . What’s your take on it, and why do you think they do it?' So, let’s hear from teens, singles (by singles, I don’t mean not in a relationship) and married peeps what they have to say concerning this issue. *rubs hands dramatically. Single ladies first. Ore  “It’s wrong. What’s wrong is wrong. I feel like a girl might lose her dignity and value that way. ” Fifi : Okay, what if they have plans to get married? After all, they’ll still live together when they get married. They might as well just start it yeah? ...