Fifi's diary

Feeling: Kai I dun know.  Time: 7: something am I have been binge watching Skinny Girl in Transit on YouTube for the past three days, I think. I'm not watching today, because, I want to use sense to manage my data for the next two days. God help me. So sha, I was about to go for my second round of sleep, when my mind went to a scene ( Spoiler alert!!! If you haven't watched it, please go to the next paragraph.) where Tiwa went to meet her ex, Kola and wanted to hear him say what he wanted to say.  Of course I was so irritated and plunged into ITK (I too know) mode with my sister - Why did she have to see him?? It was uncalled for!! I remembered when my before before boyfriend (cringe) asked to be friends with me, and I was all shades of strong (blunt), I had never been before, hitting the nail on the head like a carpenter. I was proudly telling my sister about it,  and she was like, "Yasss girll!! You mean!!' My sister is a...  I dunno, let's just say I ...

Feeling : Hungry Time: 11:05 am I think games are a great way to spice up your relationship. I'm all for games! One of my YouTube faves I'm not necessarily a competitive person, I just think it's fun, plus it's a great way to bond with your partner. So, if you are not in the mood for a dinner date, an evening out, or even just watching TV and you want to do something, having a game night would be a great substitute. It doesn't necessarily have to be at night lol, could be whenever you want. I often spend quite some time looking for games on the internet, I'm that deep. I'll let you in on some of them. Would you rather: In this game there are two options one is allowed to choose an answer  from.  I even think it's called this or that. Nah, it's not, it's just very similar. So, one person asks the other if (s)he would rather choose this option or another option, then the receiver of the question, chooses an answer.    An example:...

Feeling: sleepy Time: 11:49am On some days, days like this one, I have no inspiration to write. Like, my head feels like a blank space. Tehehehe, reminds me of Taylor Swift's song, Blank space. I just thought now, that a reason for this could be that I'm always cooped up in one place. It's most likely the only reason. I don't have friends here, sucks much. Would have suggested going out. I like forming hard girl, but sometimes I'm bothered about it. What do you do when you have zero inspiration?  I could learn a thing or two  from you. Thank you. By the very way, I had an inspiration to try out a random food combination; sweet potatoes and ogbono (mixed with okra) soup. What weird / strange meals have you tried out lately Much love,  Fifi. 

Feeling: overwhelmed with love.  Time: Wrote this five days ago, shortly before I retired for the day.  Isn't it funny how we know what to do but for some reason we find ourselves holding back?  I have lots of big dreams, dreams that scare me; dreams I feel are only possible so many years away from now; dreams I feel are too big for me to handle right now; dreams that require huge and bold steps. Dreams that push me out of my comfort zone. While I understand that my comfort zone won't in any way help me grow to be the kind of woman I want to be, sometimes, I want to be there for just a little while. It feels like so many pillows around me protecting me from the harsh realities that this life brings my way. Feels like the perfect shield. It actually is. There's just a huge con to it; no growth. Absolutely no growth. So, while I want to grow, I want to be protected. Sigh* I can't have both. I can only choose one. I choose growth It's been said that every...

Happy new year, loves! It's almost 2020!! I know we just started this year, It's just... It's amazing how there was a time 2020 seemed so far away, and now,  we're less than a year to it already. Wow!! Okay, back to 2019. Towards the end of 2018, I was low-key scared that 2019 was looming closer. I mean, I turn 23 in two months; for some reason that seemed scary.  I don't know how I feel about it right now. I'm very thankful; really grateful, but I'm not as excited as I used to be about my previous birthdays, I wonder why. Do you have any resolutions for the year?  Are you a new year resolution kinda person?  I'm not. I am just really intent on growing, no matter how little. However, if there's anything I want to do more of this year, it's to be more gentle with myself, and to celebrate little victories. This may be the beginning of a new season for you, or a continuation of the previous season; regardless, I hope you love yourself a...

Hi guys, it's been a minute, but we have another teen here.  Yaay!!! Okayy, our next guest is a really good friend of mine. Simi's super outspoken and absolutely fun to be with. She's fourteen years old, enjoys singing and dancing, and doesn't think feminism is as great as people think it is.  She'd also like to think she's a pretty good actress. I'm pretty sure you'd enjoy this session as much as I did. Let's dive in. What is the festive period like for you? I feel this festive period will be awesome for me, because we have a family tradition where we all gather to celebrate Christmas and new year together. I'm really excited about it. Who/ What motivates you? My mother. She motivates me, She tries her best to provide all that I need, and the least I can do is make her proud. Are you looking forward to being an adult?  Really, I'm not. The world seems to be so hard on adults, and I'm just not ready to go out into th...

Feeling : Loved Time: 1:48 pm Growth is a word that's been at the back of my mind for a while now. Some days ago, my brother was telling me about how he felt he hadn't learnt so much in this one year of guitar training; he felt he should have been better. He was downloading some of his you tube videos, and he was like, "I should be this good already'. I reminded him that those ones were probably taught by physical teachers and have been at it for years and years. I told him that as far as I was concerned, I think he has come such a long way. His constant dedication and commitment to getting better is worthy of note. He has no teacher, mind you. I told him every one around him has clearly seen the growth in him, and he'll get better as years go by. I have been feeling this way of late, seeing everyone else do stuff, genuinely celebrating their growth, and clearly despising mine, but we all learn. It's easier to encourage someone else. It's easi...